Leap of Faith

In my last post I spoke of the many changes, challenges that I foresaw in my future, changes that were absolutely necessary for my life to go in the direction it was fated to go. Besides cutting my hair, to embrace my approaching Cronehood, and cutting sugar and carbs from my diet, to help me live a long and healthy life, it seems that cutting My Honey from my life was part of it as well. I am no longer engaged to be married and he is no longer a part of my life. Part of embracing myself, my true nature, included being true enough to myself to realize, acknowledge and then finally have the courage to act on something that was not right for me. On most fronts life was fun, romantic and sweet, but underneath, in the shadows lay the truth, that all was not perfect, for me and what I needed in life, and it could not be ignored, covered or glossed over anymore. Asking him to leave, to accept that this wouldn't work, no matter how hard I tried, was the absolute hardest thing I ever had to do, this quote from one of my most treasured inspirations kept rolling through my mind:

"It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy."

(from the Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer)

I had to betray another's trust to be faithful to my own soul and it was without a doubt the hardest thing I've ever had to do....

I trusted my soul, my instincts, I took a Leap of Faith and am already better for it.....here's to landing in the sweetness and satisfaction of staying true to myself and my soul.....

Namaste and Blessed Be.